If your friends and family are anything like mine, I’m sure you often hear ‘you look lovely today’ or ‘I love your eye makeup’ or ‘ooo nice hair’, even when you feel utterly gross. Sometimes, when I feel gross, I put more makeup on, or spend more time on my hair to try to hide how I’m feeling inside.
Unfortunately, when I’m feeling really ‘ew’ about myself, no amount of highlighter will make me feel better.
Recently, I woke up and felt ‘ugly’, on the inside and the outside. My skin looked awful, my hair wouldn’t go right and I felt really low on the inside. Hoping for some encouragement, I googled some bible verses about beauty and actually felt worse about myself. Most of the verses I read told me that Jesus doesn’t care about our outside appearance, but about our inside appearances. Although this often is comforting, on a day when I was already feeling sad and anxious this was more unsettling than reassuring. I hate waking up feeling sad and anxious. I hate waking up and feeling ‘not quite myself’. I hate those emotions that are inside of me that make me feel bad. They make me feel bad about myself and about who I am. The bible verses made me feel stuck because I didn’t feel beautiful on the outside or the inside!
However, I finally came across a bible verse which was super reassuring. Song of Songs 4:7 says ‘you are altogether beautiful, my darling’. This was SO comforting; I understood it to mean that despite my bad skin, despite my low feelings, despite my bad thoughts about myself, all of me is still beautiful, because I have been purposefully and lovingly created by God. Jesus sees us fully for who we are, saying ‘altogether lovely’, He is not distracted by spots or greasy hair, or our low moods, He loves all of us. It doesn’t matter how we look, how we feel or how we act.
Jesus died for us so we can be free and hopeful in life. After that day of waking up feeling rubbish I wrote Song of Songs 4:7 on a post it note and stuck it to my mirror so every morning I would be reminded that every thing about me is beautiful, and that I am free to be who I am.